The path I chose at pre-adulthood sent me to an endless battle with my inner demons. I never thought it would take 2 decades of battle where I had to stab, slash, scream and rolled in bloody mud. I keep my aim true and straight but still the demons kept coming wave after wave. Durning this battle I had two friends which where Depression and Tenacious . My companion Depression on the left would constantly say,” it’s fruitless to continue”. Thenon my right my companion Tenacious would bark in saying no! “keep going with the fight, you have endless ammo”! I continued for years with this battle with endless ammo and endless waves of relentless demons running forward towards my small defensive position. The one day I noticed I was running low on the ammo I needed. I frantically looked around for Tenacious with that endless ammo but he was not around. Then ole Depression barked, “ So where is all that endless ammo?” Then the point of complete mental and physical breakdown came! I was exhausted mentally and physically from the endless battle. Everyday depression was beside me with ever more persistent and louder words saying “your outnumbered and it’s just time to give up cause they will never stop”! I slowing fell to my knees one by one. I never felt this! What is this? ! Tenacious was less seen and I don’t know why! I looked in all directionsonce again for my tiger tenacious! I yelled for more ammo again and again, but it was becoming ever so clear that I was not going to be resupplied with the vital ammo from Tenacious!

My companion depression was evermore closer and persuasive. With 3 rounds left from tenacious, I dropped to my knees and raised my weapon and fired 2 straight head shots into 2 demons which fell and their dead remains quickly disappeared as the waves of demons ran them over. They were closer now. I can now smell them, feel their heat closer now! Depression was the only one there now with the only words I can hear. With one round left in my weapon there was only one way to end this battle and that one last round was not going to make a difference to use on one of the endless demons running towards me. I was cold with total fear of what would happen if I just give up? What will be in store for me and my family if I just give up! I had no idea what laid in store for me. Then depression said confidently to me, the battle will end if you follow my words! All I had to do was give up! Nothing and no one mattered except meat this point of the battle! I sunk to the lowest point of my life!

Now I slowing released my fingers one by one around my weapon, feeling somewhat relieved and somewhat confused, but the battle will be over I thought to myself. In less than a second I felt something, It felt very warm then hot like a young burning star! I started to sweat and felt dry in the mouth. My heart was pounding harder and faster every split second. What the heck is this feeling I thought? Have I took a arrow to my weary body and didn’t know it? I looked over myself quicly and saw no blood. Then I lifted my head and looked to my right. There was tenacious running towards me at the speed of lightning with a saddlebag of ammo. Shear confusion set in now…! I was tired and weary! Should I follow the words of depression that did nothing but sit and talk into my mind or should I go with this physical feeling of a star burning from tenacious? I had to stand up now…I had to make the ultimate decision of what to do. I placed the butt of my weapon on the ground, grabbed the hot muzzle of it and pulled my tired broken body up. I stood there facing depression with a half attention stance. I was tired, broken and weary but I was standing. I raised my head at depression in front of me and saw his lips only because I could not look any higher due to complete exhaustion. I then looked to my left slowly and saw the demons with their bloody hatred racing towards me. Once again I looked at depression’s lips which were pale and tight with confidence but without movement. I slowly looked down at my weapon sitting tightly within my two hands realizing only one was round left. When I started to move my eyes to the right. Then I felt this tremendous hit of heat to my right side. It was a hit so great it shook me and burned. It was Tenacious! My never ending ammo bearer who raced to me faster than the speed of light and impacted my soul with the force of a billion burning stars impacting each other. In an burning rage of confidence and understanding and I raised my head and looked depression straight in the eye. My heart pumped with ever stronger beats that I have never felt. My jaw was so tense I was grinding my teeth to an even level! My head hurt and it felt like it was about to burst. My family flashed in my vision now! My family I thought. They are me and I am them! I stepped back and raised my weapon, tightened my grip and aimed straight and true at depression who sat there just talking. What a loser I thought. As I aimed straight and true I felt the love of family, compassion and the true meaning of life. I slowly squeezed the trigger and I felt the sweat drip into my eyes which burned which made me close my eyes. I squeezed the trigger harder with eyes closed with the burning sweat in them. Suddenly I heard the sound of a million stars exploding and the recoil pain against my shoulder as the comet ignited from my weapon! In that millionth of a sec ond between the sound and pain in my shoulder I opened my left eye and saw the brightest of comets fly from the muzzle of my weapon. It was precise, straight and true as it flew and impacted depression straight in the heart. I saw the hole from the comet. I saw depression fly backwards holding the heart. It was all such slow motion it seemed it would never end. I watched as depression flew backwards slowly and becoming blurry as the distance became greater.

With the burning and intensity of a million stars racing through my body I watched depression fade into the nothing of a blackhole. Still holding my weapon at a battle ready aim, I looked to my left with only my eyes and saw the demons fading like depression did. The demons where fading by the thousands and never to make it to their final victory of my soul. I felt exhausted, legs weighted down, relieved and mostly loved. Loved I thought. What I feeling (as the song would play) but this was not a song on the radio…it was a true feeling. None I never felt before. I liked it. I loved it! Now that I have what I never known, needed or felt. I looked down at my weapon. I now have no need for it! I have tenacious now, my tiger of never give up! I now loosed my grip and let my weapon fall. Then I watched my weapon of defense and offence fall into the bloody muck of years of battles with the endless hordes of the demons of despair hit and splash! This is the end of the war! This was the enlightenment of being loved. I now turned around and walk away with a completely different aspect of life and understanding. I am now my true self and here I am!!

Hmmmm no retards and fakes thats for sure.